Blog? Check.

I've spent a lot of time since I've been married thinking about "stuff" or rather, going through crazy checklists in my head. I don't think my husband or my children fully appreciate literally how many hours of my life are spent constantly going through checklists in my head on their behalf. I think ahead to what I need to pack them for lunches, who needs which set of clothes for what day/function. I am doing it in the grocery store, at the gas station, at the house when I am cleaning up (which by the way, is EVERY morning after the guys leave), and when I get home for the day. There are times I think my husband or kids think I'm in my own world because I have a blank stare. It's not that, I'm just going through another checklist in my head. It's funny though, because this year I turned 40 and I am literally amazed at the fact there are times I am in the middle of my mental checklist and it's like someone pushed the reset button in my head. I have too much up there sometimes and I try to think about it all at the same time, which renders me useless. Oh well. Maybe that's the time I need to go take a nap. When I become an old lady some day I wonder what I will do with all the time saved not having to go through checklists in my mind. Maybe recover all the sleep I've lost over the years being a wife and mother? Who knows!