Self discipline, schmiscipline.

Well, I have to admit it. I lack discipline. I suck, admittedly. I make plans and don't finish, I started losing weight only to gain 1/2 of it back (like for the 50th gazillion time). WHY??? Well, I have come to the conclusion I am pretty lazy. No excuses, just trying to figure it all out. The sad thing is I get on my son for being lazy, lacking discipline and here I am, the queen of laziness. Ahhh..........so what shall I do, just give up? No, that's stupid. I guess it's never too late to start and as long as I take it a day at a time I can do it. I have come to the conclusion that "programs" "pills" and all the other myriad of things that can be purchased via TV or internet only work because you're letting them do all the thinking for you. Ahem, laziness. The only real way to come to a result is to make a determination that I'm going to eat less and exercise more. Simplistic I know.......believe me. It sounds a lot easier than it is. I ACTUALLY have to plan ahead and either get up early for work or go to the gym after work. I have to watch what I eat and ice cream is NOT on the diet........I know, completely sucks. I am a junk food-a-holic (if there is such a thing). I would rather eat fried than grilled, opt for fries and leave the friggin salad out of it. This doesn't even delve into my addiction to chocolate. That's a whole other blog for another day. Oh well. So, here I go ........AGAIN!!! Wish me luck, and admittedly I will need prayer. I will be doing most of the praying though. I have no discipline within myself and need all the help I can get.

Thank you Lord in advance for all the help you are giving me and grace you bestow!