Bummer

So, it's been awhile since I've posted. I guess there's a few reasons for that. I haven't been "inspired" to post anything. This has been the toughest winter I have been through in a long time. Many people know I've been with Aflac for almost 10 yrs. Hard to believe it's been that long. I love doing what I do, but more importantly I love helping people. Here's my dilemma: I worked at an agency for a year and a half and didn't really try opening new groups, etc (the sort of things that need to be done in order to continue to grow your business) while I worked there. When I went back to working for myself full time, I had a hard time getting started again, then Christmas. I have been struggling for about 6 weeks with motivation, attitude and quite frankly just wanting to throw in the towel and give up (which is by the way, the kiss of death in sales). It's hard to have a good attitude when you feel overwhelmed by lack of income, bills and life in general. I honestly thought I was depressed (ok, I'm a little crazy, I know, but hey). It was a feeling I have never experienced in my life. I always had some level of hope or at least would "snap out of it" quickly, a lot earlier than 6 weeks. Then Mark said something very profound. He said, "you know Rhonda, you need to give it to the Lord and quit worrying about it, but you already know that". Smack. Right in the face. Something that had been missing from my daily routine. Something I talk about but have neglected to do for awhile. Crack open the old Bible and pray. Wow. How simple yet how powerful. I don't want to give the impression that tradition and following some daily checklist avoids all frustration and problems. Anyone who's been a Christian for longer than a minute knows that just isn't the case. I have been looking for answers in places I shouldn't be. I have been relying on myself and my contacts, my talents, my abilities. What I should have been doing in going to the Lord and asking Him for guidance and help with my attitude. It's amazing how your perspective changes when you realize it's not all up to you and not all on your shoulders. So, have I figured it all out? No. Not at all. What I am praying and asking for is guidance. I need it. Desperately.